1 week and 5 days...

I have officially left work and am on Maternity leave... but still no baby. Not on the outside at least. Last week at the midwife apt. one of the girls was talking about birth and all of the rest of the things that come with labor. She really was going on and on about the whole experience (in the context of not really knowing how things will go... what could potentially go wrong) and I finally said, Shaun and I have a really strong faith base and we both know that ultimately everything will be ok.

Before this pregnancy we had a miscarriage. It happened at 7 weeks, and was short with no hospital visit. During this time it was a battle to either accept what was happening, or to try to control what was happening and literally loose it. As my body expelled what it no longer needed to carry a child, I let go. Slowly, let go. Peace filled me. (I wrote a blog about peace being a choice shortly after.) It wasn't that I was OK with what was happening, or that I wasn't in physical pain, it was that I was re-assured that everything would ultimately be OK, and that this was just temporary.

THIS IS JUST TEMPORARY! Another great way of looking at the pain of a birth... I look at most things as temporary, or look forward knowing that everything will be OK, and not just on earth, because that is going to the shitter at the moment as well. No, everything will be OK because God will bring us to our home with Him in the end. If everything will ultimately be OK, then you don't need to control. Control is only temporary anyways, and it's always false. Happiness and Sadness are both temporary on earth... Peace and true Joy is eternal.