New Roomie

I never thought in a million years that i would have someone live with me again, only because I am a bit of a difficult person to get along with even at the best of times. (and because of all that screwed up interpersonal stuff that i am continually trying to figure out.) But for one week I have had a wonderful roommate. She does dishes, cleaned out 3 weeks worth of garbage, (something I'm not sure I would have ever done,) and I cant wait to get home so I can ask how her day went. I just wish i was the same size as her so I could do laundry a lot less, (all about doing less work) but being 16 has it's advantages, and one of them is that 25 year olds cant squeeze their butt(s) into your clothes.

The biggest joy in my life, is watching her be happy. I love seeing her get overly happy about something. It seems almost selfish, it brings me the most joy I have had in a long time. It’s like having a little kid be amazed and laughing as you blow a bubble in their face and pop it. We hung out on Monday night, and I wondered if I was 16 again… man it was so much fun…long story.

As a result of now having a roommate, so much has been needed to change... in a part of my life that I don’t pay much attention to, or better said, care to pay attention to. "The Physical Realm" is something that Jo Pott does not care to care for. You know like basic needs...food, sleep, exercise, not so good. So having this 16-year-old living with me keeps me accountable to a few things that I would ignore normally. It may even make me care for myself better...(IMAGINE!).

I am also beginning to recognize that I have no clue how a youth mind works anymore. I forgot that logic goes out the window most of the time, that when things hurt there isn’t always a light at the end of the tunnel; trust is longevity, and depression sets in far too quickly. What a crazy time of life. Cant imagine where I would have been if the basics were not provided for me in this time. I did poorly enough with all the love in the world, shelter, food and a kick is the butt once in awhile. Needing wisdom, and patience (and not my own). In the process of understanding my role once again. Simplicity is what I am striving for. Can you strive for simplicity or is it just gotten or had? Whatev. Must think in head before typing. Let me know what you think…