professionalism

The last week has been so above my head that I have wondered if I should maybe go crawl into a hole and stay there for a few days. I have realized that making decisions is not one of my strong points, and when i do make them, I become increasingly anxious. I would have never thought I was someone who liked to put things off. I had to do interviews for work, to hire on a full time summer student to work with, and quite honestly, I have no clue how to perform interviews. NO CLUE!!! I think If my boss could have seen me in action they would have done the interviews themselves. (References, and you shoul dhave heard the questions i asked!!! maybe too personal, maybe not; I'll never really know) I am also in the process of writing a reference letter for Andrea, NOT A CLUE! Maybe I am lacking in confidence, i dont know. I do know that I am feeling a little (lot) out of my league, and that stupid prayer of Jabez I will never pray, even joking again.... except for the part about keeping me from temptation. The whole expand my territory thing is just not cool... or is cool but I dont like it. Not good that fear has to hold me when i wake...

Most days I wonder about this new place I am in, and like a child I just keep looking for my Daddy to look after me... Sometimes out of despiration and sometimes out of confidence that My daddy is the hugest thing going in this world...