old issues become new ones...

Two years ago I was asked about trust and controle issues. I have them huge. I thought I had overcome them by allowing myself to be a little more open to life and rolling with the punches. Aparently, overcoming these issues has only seeped into specific areas of my life. they are still very much there in my relationship(s) and just my interactions with others. Cruddy! At least I am thinking alittle more clear this week.

Stoner insite...

One of my good friends called me drunk and stoned the other night. After most of the giggles were out, I explaned that my teacher was fast tracking me from a 3 year to a one and a half year (maybe one year) completion on my certificate. I explained that i felt like he was out to get me, and feeling a little insecure about the whole thing. She replied that there is a reason for what is going on. She said that there is a reason for everything... then proceeded to talk about examples in my life of when this has happened, and what potential examples I should be seeing. I was a little taken back by her words of truth... Wondered where it all came from and went to sleep.

Recap...

Just to let you know, when my teacher asked me to sit off to the side of the class and I listened for one week, nothing haqs changed. NOTHING! So today I will go back to routine.

Also my roomate and I had a talk two days after the fight, and she will be staying. Lost a bet on that one... grrrrr!