Theme vacation...

Hate to say it, but going on vacation and coming back is a good way to tell how people will get along when you die. A few relationships I need to back away, and a few i need to be closer in. (Just an observation, I AM NOT suicidal!!!)

Two things that seemed to be the themes for this vacation:
1.) Community
2.) Marriage

First community...

At C+C there has been an ongoing sence of needed community, how to create community, and people that are outside of the "box" community.. and so on. My father is the oldest son (8 children) of a family who has spent 50 years arround the same church / people / families. Being the oldest daughter of the oldest son in the Pott family has always sparked the interest of those within this community in NB. I spent time at "Family Camp" and had over 15 people (mostly over the age of 30) ask me what I was doing, where I wanted to go in life, and if i was seeing anyone. (Later part will be talked about.) Funny, I am loved there, and fully accepted, feel it when I arrive, and know it will be there when i leave. Why is it so hard for me to find it here. I asked my father about community and why it is hard to find, he simply said that "poeple in Ontario are different". I tend to disagree. (Although people that live out east are so much more slower and easy going). I know that 50 years can build a strong sence of community, but what do these people in NB have that I personally and we as a group may be lacking? Is is a generational thing? How can those barriors be broken? Do we need crisis to pull us closer? Are we willing to sacrifice? Also, the church service there is so yuck... but I would sit through that service to have people care about me after it over hot coffee and dutch cakes. Just a few thoughts floating through my mind...

Second, Marriage...

This is a little more sensitive of a subject for me at this time in my life. I have heard this saying a million times:
"as soon as you stop looking for love, it will find you". So... all of my cousins are either married or engaged, with children, or not yet. I was a minority, and I am older than most. You can imagine my discomfort with the whole idea. I was asked before I left if I could be single forever... I said certain things I dont need at all, but companionship I DO NEED!!! And those of you that read this, and know me, would know all too well how much I need to become ok just with God before i go out looking for someone to loop arround my finger. (Very aware of my issues...) So, just needing some encouragement in this area. I do not feel unloved, but I do feel like it may be forever until God hands me someone that will complament me. All these older couples say "oh Jo, God has someone just right for you..." And if I indeed beieve that God is enough, and believe that he has mt best interest in mind, then he will provide...eeerrrfff...(frustration) No one said it would be easy.

All in all a good time in NB. lots of thought and alone time did me well. Missed my rommie, and a few others. Let me know what you thing about stuff...