Good-bye to New guy...

Hello interviews once again... So getting ready for work this morning I got a call from my boss, very urgent. Cant insure the new guy on the car because of too many speading tickets... Not so good. (Good lesson in consequences there...) So I am back to square one, and dealing with the whole mess has kind of made me very... giddy. I just dont know how to really deal with it. Thought he was the guy for the job, but I was wrong. Whatev.

Am frustrated with a few other things in my life. This are just not running smoothly on a few accounts, and I found myself wondering if I had done something to hurt or offend God, and that is why my world is beginning to make little sense at the moment. Such thoughts are from the pit-o-HELL, and I am reminded today that I am not in controle, but He is, and that HIS love for me is not based on my performance. I do wonder though if things that are not directly connected can be a result of my ignorance or lack of being close to God. Maybe it is not always as spiritual as I seem to make it. Maybe the new guy was fired just because he had a cruddy drivers lisence.(sp?) It cant always be oh here i am being punished again... No I dont believe that. I think that maybe it just depends on my reaction. People at my workplace watch me like a hawk, maybe just moving forward with no bitching or complaining is that best witness. Probly... Jo Out...