starve / puke...

Searching the net for info on eating disorders was a chore today. There are suppose to be horrible sights out there to show you have to loose weight via eating disorder... Before I go on, I better tell you that I am doing a talk tomarow at an alternative school. So, I went through my obsessive jounrals I kept during that time in my life. Yes, it has been a long night of wonderful reflection... I really hope I represent and promote health, and not eating disorders while I am there. Going at it from a more of a personal view will hopefull allow conversation, and awareness. I might even bring old pictures of my dental records. We'll see where my confidence is at. I am excited, because I love public speaking to youth. I learn so much about them, and how they think. I forget how it is to be a teen. I use to know... Been in school a little too ling maybe. Or not.

As a side note, there are a huge amount of decisions that need to be made in the next while about the future. I am hoping that God makes them for me, but avoidence is not always the best choice. Graduation is just around the corner, and I'm a little freeked. I have to keep in the front of my brain the main reason I went to school to begin with. Everyone says I should go on to University, but I'm not sure that's what I will do. All a silly bunch of thoughts, because what needs to happen will.