Encounter this week...

Strangly enough I learned something at church this past Sunday. SOMETHING NEW! Well it's kinda old, but a new form of new / old... no?

Background:

Leb and his fearless leadership team have been talking about "walls" in our lives that we use to hide behind from God and from others... So when I was asked to add my brick of shame to the wall, I said "independancy".

(Leb was speaking on humour and sarcasm (sp?) this morning, not on my personal brick... so I'm not sure how this whole lightbulb in the head happened... well I do... no time for that...)

The lightbulb:

me seeming independant (AKA dont need anyone for anything) is not something just bad for my relationships with others, it blocks me from really trusting that God has my back. What if he is using others to take care of me? What if he wants to directly take care of me? It's kinda like that... no words don't really convey the truest of what I am saying... um... oh well, it kind of looks like I said.

It's like this... I eat junk food all weekend, my mom could have fed me, my mom could have fed me and felt good about caring for me, because that's what she loves doing, and me not allowing her to do so takes away from not only my relationship with her, but also what God has made her to be... Make sense?

Or like this... Needing a ride home, dont call someone who would have been great with caring for me, dropping me off, I take a taxi. ($5 and regrets later...)

All in all a humbling journey ahead...