God's love...

In church this morning Ric talked about how we dont always believe that God loves us, and that sometimes we forget about who we are because of him, or in and through him. (Dont ask me to explane the theology arround that one, I cant... maybe I could... water / ice / mist?... or something)

Anyways, I dont think I have trouble believing God loves me, even when people do call me names and share their more than true observations about me. I know where I am weak. God still loves me. I guess It is more of a "ya God loves me... but (it's the but's ya gotta look out for) ...but do I trust that he has my best in mind?" It's the whole "delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart." (Psalms) The desires of my heart... humm, ya I can really trust the desires of my heart. And what exactly does it mean to delight yourslef in the Lord? It means a whole wack 'a things! And the things you desire you dont always desire once you have them. I guess that would mean that you are not delighting yourself in the Lord then... There have been times when I have thought I was recieveing the desires of my heart to find out that God gave me them to me so that I would see that the real thing I wanted (the things God would have given me if I was delighting myself in him) was far better. Stupid, stupid. A mentor described it as "eating poop as compared to your favorite meal... so very true. (never eaten poop, but dogs breath smell horrible after they do, I dont imagine it would be much different for humans...)

Not sure where this rant is going, just thought i would share...