Sock Monkey's

Soon to come... I think I will start advertising Sock monkey's in thi splace... no time now... more to come!!!

Consequences...

It still blows me away when full blown adults (full blown= anyone over 30) make choices that affect everyone around them, then expect the consequences to only affect themselves... Divorce: great example... does it really come back down to being selfish? and not knowing the truth about what is going on? (Christmas without my parents together for a 2nd year has hit hard once again.)

Recently someone said that I'd better be ready because now life would be all about the baby... (Trinity) You know what I said, I have had my time of it being all about me, I have had my time of people looking at me, wanting to know me... and in some situations wanting to be me... I am glad to pass the torch, and jump on the Trinity fan bandwagon, heck, I'm driving it...

Is there any excuse when you have a child and you're not ready to let it be all about them now? Too young? Too selfish to begin with? Your "partner" takes too much of your attention? Whatever it is, there are far too many parents out there who believe that it is still about them. When you work it out, it must be about God. In God, you are able to see past your own nose and serve your spouse, your children. You are last... by choice, by the grace of God, and His grace will give you the strength, especially when you don't want to.

The sermon in my head is far easier to teach than to live.

1 week and 5 days...

I have officially left work and am on Maternity leave... but still no baby. Not on the outside at least. Last week at the midwife apt. one of the girls was talking about birth and all of the rest of the things that come with labor. She really was going on and on about the whole experience (in the context of not really knowing how things will go... what could potentially go wrong) and I finally said, Shaun and I have a really strong faith base and we both know that ultimately everything will be ok.

Before this pregnancy we had a miscarriage. It happened at 7 weeks, and was short with no hospital visit. During this time it was a battle to either accept what was happening, or to try to control what was happening and literally loose it. As my body expelled what it no longer needed to carry a child, I let go. Slowly, let go. Peace filled me. (I wrote a blog about peace being a choice shortly after.) It wasn't that I was OK with what was happening, or that I wasn't in physical pain, it was that I was re-assured that everything would ultimately be OK, and that this was just temporary.

THIS IS JUST TEMPORARY! Another great way of looking at the pain of a birth... I look at most things as temporary, or look forward knowing that everything will be OK, and not just on earth, because that is going to the shitter at the moment as well. No, everything will be OK because God will bring us to our home with Him in the end. If everything will ultimately be OK, then you don't need to control. Control is only temporary anyways, and it's always false. Happiness and Sadness are both temporary on earth... Peace and true Joy is eternal.

Mmmm coveting... and new phones

It's not too often that i covet something that someone else has, that i to could have had, (because how stupid is that... I had my chance to have the same thing... duh) Last week Shaun and I found we were eligible for a new phone, free of charge from Telus. So we did what any starved teckie junkie and his wife would do and went to collect the prize. We pondered the Mike network vs. normal phone, smart phones, free applications, e mail, text messaging, fav. five and colours of the potential little winners. Two hours later we walked out with one normal (but pink) phone, and 2 blackberry's. We are still saving on our bill, even adding Jessie on to our plan! Wow, made me want to do cartwheels. But now, I am coveting Shaun's new phone. There was a pink one just like his there, and I am asking myself why I had to be different and go with a normal phone? Truth be known, i wanted to be able to still make phone calls and text because i am seriously technically retarded. but I like that he gets his email on his phone for free and has a schedule. Anyways, Shaun said i should call and ask about changing the phone, and I think I should just suffer through the whole thing and let it be a learning curve... 3 years from now i will get what i really want.